I often feel as though this photo of my Great-Grandmother Maria Carmen is trying to tell me something. I never met Maria Carmen but she often appears in my dreams and I do feel her watching over me. I designed this tarot spread based on my photo of Maria Carmen, you can modify as needed for your own photos.
What does Maria Carmen see? What would she tell me? What about the comforting smell of all those lush italian meals she was legendary for?
Maria Carmen’s daughter (my grandmother) always had a napkin in her hand. For the first time ever I noticed Maria Carmen is also grasping a handkerchief, a passed-down security blanket. Could Maria Carmen tell me something about my own security blanket?
Standing in front of a veil, My great-grandmother becomes the High Priestess with the same quiet stillness on the shore of a lake by the woods. It’s as if the water behind her holds the records of our family, our memories, accomplishments, triumphs and shortfalls — but all of it is just painted on fabric. Like the tarot itself, the lake is a metaphoric image that provides a handle on the incomprehensible nothingness.
I did the spread with my in-progress tarot deck (my cat just couldn’t help joining in.)
It’s incredible to see the card that depicts my Grandmother appear as what Maria wants to tell me. My Grandmother is the Queen of Roses and she appears next to the Wheel of Fortune. There’s a big picture in the little tasks. A while ago, a reading said that I connect to ancestral energy by cooking, baking, rolling out dough, etc. These are very spiritual activities for our Italian family.
How do I connect to Maria Carmen’s heart/love? Saint Theresa / the 9 of Roses. My grandmother would always pray to Saint Theresa and say, “show me the roses.” When a rose appeared, her prayer was answered. This is why an entire suit of my tarot deck is roses. To connect with Maria Carmen, I must look for the roses.
I won’t go into the specifics of the rest of the reading publicly, but I feel Maria Carmen is telling me that I’m not quite living up to my full potential and also not taking full advantage of what’s available to me.
I’m probably still not ready to get a glimpse of what’s behind the veil, either. The 5 of Shells represents grief and heartache. I’ll stay away from that for now.